Not everything will follow you. I have to search and search and try hard to get it.
But everyone say family will always with you.
To me, It is not.
I just like an orphan but must better than them. I have all family members, father, mother, brother, grandpa, grandma, aunt, uncle, and cousin. I live with them. When I growth up, I know the conflict in the family. This make me wish to leave this home. I choose to study at a place which is far away from my house. I think if i just go back frequently, then the problem and the conflict will no more. But I'm wrong. The conflict become bigger and bigger. Why? Can i just go back and celebrate grandma's birthday? Can i just go back and share what i see and how i spend my uni life? Why when i back i have to listen to what my dad did, what my bro done, what my cousin does? It's suffer!!!
At the beginning, I choose to go back because i miss my family but now i really afraid to go back. I hate this. This make me really stress and feel I'm alone. I dunno who can i talk to. Ok. Smile Girl!!
Then, finding a job is not because of lack of money. It's just gaining experience and earn some pocket money. From the start, everything is well. Happy and enjoy. But when i touch in many things, get to know many things, stress come again. I treat every workmate like my friend. I can treat you truly but why you cant? And boss. I really wish to help you. I know suffer is a way to growth. I'll try to be strong!
Sorry for making all inconvenience. It's my stage to growth me up. and i know it. But i need time to digest. I'm not strong enough. I know it. Sorry.
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Everything will become possible if you believe
